Puddleglum's Marsh

4/27/2025

Spent today trying to study. I continue to struggle to find energy to do the stuying I should be doing. I did however, buy a game I am weirdly obsessed with on Steam. It went on sale for $7, so I decided I might as well own a copy for my computer as well as my switch. It's Where Angels Cry. I even have a little character that I designed for the main character when he was still faceless in the first game. He has the outfit for the second game but whatever. You play as an investigator for the Church and look into a miracle of a statue crying tears of blood. You figure out that the new prior of the monastary is acting suspiciously and have to figure out what he's up to. I managed to beat it in two hours this time and got an achievement for it, so that's fun. I unlocked like 80% of the achievements on my first run. It's a dumb little point and click puzzle game, but I like it. I made a blinky for it a while back, too. It just sort of lives in the back of my brain and rears its head every once in a while. I played it as a kid when my mom would keep me busy with little puzzle games and it has just had its place in my mind since. I'm using it to avoid the dread. I played the second game a few years back and designed the character then before I finished the game. Then at the very end, you can see his face, and he's just a basic white man model. I made him a little ethnic in mine but whatever. Decided after a while I was gonna call him Isaias because I can't just call him my Where Angels Cry OC. He's wearing the knights templar uniform, but in the first game he's just wearing monk robes. I have some doodles of him in those but I mainly draw him in the templar armor. What can I say? It's more fun to draw. I should probably draw him in the robes more, though. In the second game they decided to animate the characters while they talked, but it ended up just looking weird. It is funny to see him chucking a bee hive at some guy though. (It was the antagonist, dont worry.) I love the little things he says when you click on irrelevant or wrong objects. "I don't think that'll work.""The cow looks happy.""That dog takes his job very seriously." I just find it funny. Very generic but eh. I might draw him some later tonight. Get my hand used to him again.

4/26/2025

Today I packed up studio and moved all that shit outta there. It was kind of nice to get it all out and know I don't have to worry about it anymore. I manged to pack that and a few of my dorm things up and get those back home before doing literal nothing for the rest of the day. I did go to a slime making event and got a few free fidgets, so that's always fun. My hands are stained green now, though. I made so much slime that I couldn't fit it in the cups or containers they had, so I brought it back to my dorm and stuffed it into a ziploc bag I had. I'm debating watching some more Gundam tonight or if I should do something else. All day I've struggled with getting myself to do things, including watching my show. Last I watched Cagali had been revealed to be a princess of the Orb or whatever. I need to study for my finals, but I haven't managed to do that either. Maybe my depression is kicking in. Who knows? Not super thrilled to have to live with my transphobic mother again here in about a week. Guess I'm going to be living on discord VCs and trying ignore the constant deadnaming and misgendering. God ot annoys me so much, but bringing it up would only start more shit. God I can barely stand to look at her face now. Hopefully I get some sort of counselling or therapy set up over the summer.

4/25/2025

Finally finished with final review. That was hectic as hell and had many not sleeping, but all I have to worry about now is finals and portfolio preview. I've been spending my spare time getting into Gundam, and that's been pretty fun. Tried to watch the UC, but I have to get crunchyroll to watch ZZ and Zeta. Accidentally watched Char's Counterattack without watching those two. Whoops. Quess was annoying as fuck though. Her stupid lopsided pig tails just bothered me the whole time she was on screen.

They put it in a braid for one scene but then put it right back to that awful hairstyle. Does she have to part it precisely every time she does her hair? Who knows? I figure I'll get a crunchyroll subscription over the summer and am watching Gundam Seed right now. Absolutely devastating that my favorite character's name is Mu. Like Moo. Like a cow. Devastating. Mu La Flaga the man that you are. He's honestly the most chill person there. That and he's just a basic ass blond white man.

Accidentally spoiled myself online (I AM GOING TO SPOIL IT HERE) and saw that he apparently ends up with the captain. I think they're pretty cute, but apprently something weird happens to him. Like he dies and then comes back looking like a Char clone or something? I truly don't know. RIP Mu I guess but not really. I've also been looking on Amazon for some gundams to start putting together over the summer. Seems like a me kind of hobby. I like seeing how things get put together and all (engineer moment), and I like studying action figures. Maybe it'll improve my craft. I'm probably going to start with RX-78 as he is the OG, and then I'll probably do Char's Zaku. Get the two classics down. I also might wanna do the Gouf (which is not apparently just a blue Zaku) and maybe the Lagowe from Seed. It looks like a fucked up cat and it makes me laugh. He's just a little guy. To be honest these guys are either far more expensive or far less expensive than what I tend to see with figurines. Like I'll see a $15 kit and be like "oh nice" and then see a $715 one and question my existence. The perfect grades (if that is what the highest one is I'm not googling that rn) scare me. I also haven't seen anything he's been in but I do have a favorite Gundam and it's Tequila Gundam. Yes he is a racial stereotype, but I'm part of that culture so it's fine. Specifically the Daniel custom. He's a giant Mexican robot cowboy. What more could I want in a Gundam?

Anywho, I found a trend where people put their Gundams on their bags with waterproof clear cases. The image of a Gouf just hanging off of a bag is so fucking funny to me. Clear prison for Gouf. Clear prison for Gouf for a thousand years. Maybe I get one and just carry my little soundwave around with me. Maybe I should make a page on here of the gundam I make and my action figures. That could be fun. I have some Star Wars action figures and my Soundwave as I mentioned. This is probably enough for tonight. I have to make a blinkie for the blog page and add it to the menu at some point, but I am not sure that is happening tongiht. Good night, y'all.